From an early age

My interested in spandex came about through several means. I remember being around 10 years old and the excitment and anticipation that I had simply by paging through the Sear's Catalog to look at the pictures of men and boys modeling underwear. I did not understand why I did this, except the look of males in underwear was pleasing to me. My younger sister and I had joined a local Children's Theater Playhouse where we performed in skits and plays. A year later, due to financial constrains and unable to provide a level of medical care that I needed following major surgery, my mother sent me to live with an aunt in Maritime Canada. My interest in theater and someday becoming a Hollywood actor never faded away, but given my new situation living with an aunt who never married or had children of her own, my focus was redirected towards living away from home and settling into a different living and social environment. To and from school, I walked past a dance studio where several girls in my classes were taking ballet and lyrical dance classes. Whenever I approached the studio, I would stop for a quick moment to look inside, but not long enough to let anyone see me or think that I was interested in studying dance. Each time I went past, my curious and interest grew, however I felt inside that no boy my age would ever take ballet and if they did they would be harassed and bullied. My secret desire continued to become stronger the more I thought about it and in conversation with my aunt I threw out hints and suggestions that in order to be a serious Hollywood actor, taking dance classes would be helpful. Finally, my aunt got my hint, and asked if I wanted to take ballet, and after a few deep swallows and coming up for air, I said yes. My fear was how do I explain to my aunt that I was interested in taking ballet and what would her reaction be and would she tell me ballet is for girls or silly boys. She supported me 100% by bringing me down to the center to inquire about classes and costs and before we left, she had me signed up for several classes each week. The dance instructor asked if I had any previous experience, and why I wanted to take ballet. After explaining that I had none, and I wanted to be in the movies and on TV as an actor, that was enough. She recommended several dancewear stores where to purchase the required dance attire that I would need to further pursue my interest in the entertainment world; the closest one was 45 miles away. Before my first dance class, we drove into the big city of Moncton, NB to purchase all the appropriate dance clothing that I would need, the store clerk was helpful by more or less being discret when it came to the style of tights and picking out the required dancebelt that all males must wear. To me, it was somewhat embarrassing to think that I soon will be wearing what appeared to be nothing more than woman's nylon pantyhose in a relatively small room with girls who I went to school with. When the clerk suggested to me to try on the tights, shirt and ballet slippers, I said not and that everyone would fit just fine. We left the store with several pairs of black, maroon and white footed tights and several unfooted, along with a black and beign dance belt, and 6 white tee shirts. The ride home, I was more excited about taking ballet but at the same time, I had some anxiety and apprehension about wearing tights and an added worry what the kids at school would say. I managed to survive the initial shock and series of harassing comments and gestures from students at school when one by one they all learned that I was studing ballet. I made an attempt or to to explain that it was necessary towards my acting career, but no one took me seriously. I continued to study ballet at this local center for two years when at the age of 13, my application was accepted to attend a private preparatory school. Roth Academy was a recognized school with high standards of academic learning and constructed towards music, cultural sciences and the performing arts. My early days of attending Roth were filled with more apprehension and worry where I was previous distant from my mother and sisters, I found myself living on campus in the boys' dorm with a room mate from Sherbrooke, Ontario named Gee, but he emphasized it was pronounced as Guy. It was not until I reached the age of 13 while first attending Roth that wearing tights and seeing other boys in tights began to become more apparent and meaningful to me. Along with the natural progession of reaching that time of adolescence when I began to take more notice of my body and the realization that my mind was filled with mixed and conflicting thoughts and why I had certain strange urges and tendencies. More than once I was caught staring at the other boys crotches and frontal protrusions that I always knew was there, but suddenly took on a variety of meanings and sensations. It was not until I was changing out of my gym clothes in the boys locker room and walking towards the boy's shower when someone else noticed that I was fully erect. I was completely embarrassed and all that I could do was get dressed and leave as quickly and as quietly as I could. I expected the worst during classes by hearing laughter and being humiliated even more, but this did not happen. During ballet classes, the typical bulge in the boys tights became more of a distraction for me, and I discovered another worry that I was erect when I least wanted it to happen. I became more fixated towards the male body and comparing the size of one protrusion to another and against my own and I also began to notice when another boy was also erect inside his dancebelt. I continued to study ballet and lyrical dance at Roth through graduation with opportunties to have performed with several professional companies along the way. I found myself as a teenager in the mist of more adult males who each had their own physical characteristics and features that continued to consume my thoughts and expand my curiousity and attraction towards men in general, and my trend towards wearing tights proudly and boldly during performances, and gave me some advantage or encouragement to continue exploring other less modest opportunities by buying and wearing bikini swimwear to the pool and beach and eventually when I got interested in biking, cross country skiing and running, the fashion trend of wearing spandex shorts and tights. Wearing spandex as athletic wear in public gains some attaction from women and some men, some if I am able to read their mind, love to see it on a guy, and others are telling or convincing themselves that they as males, would never wear it, but I suspect those guys who say or think this, are insecure about their own bodies or ashamed of how the look. My one time run in with 3 guys who were all wearing snowmobile suits while sitting on their machines while stopped in the middle of a small frozen pond in the woods while drinking beer, and my unanticipated stumbling upon them while I was on skis wearing a pair of X10 Spandex tights brought a sudden concern to me. Each of them looked me over like I was some kind of nut wearing little in temperatures around 20 degrees F. I was relieved when one of them offered me one of their beers, though I did not want it, I drank it to show some male conradery. One of them finally asked if I was cold, and I immediately said no, though having stopped and losing the advantage of my body heat and the spandex to wick away my body moisture, I then realized that I was turning into a human popicle as the moisture in the spandex had frozen. Sometimes a guy just knows intuitively when another person, whether female or male likes what they see and I can say for certainty, that at least one of these macho guys liked what he saw in me, and if I am wrong, then it was not one guy who was aroused by seeing me in tight spandex, but two of them, though I doubt each other knew or would ever admit to it. Wearing spandex or ballet tights, or speedos, or a fully padded snowmobile suit, we are all naked underneath what we wear, and if a woman or man can appropriately wear spandex or bikini, or nothing at all and if their bodies are appealing and attractive, then go for it. If you are out of shape and enjoy wearing spandex, then go for it also, enjoy life's little pleasures - Life is too short and difficult, not to.

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